I just yelled at my mom and now she isn't speaking to me.

She came in saying she was washing towels and for me to bring her any. I told her I didn't have any because I had just gone through and washed my laundry.

She then goes into my closet and searches through my dirty clothes. This sets me off. I ask her to please get out of there. We've done this a million times and usually I just take it and bite my toungue. But This time I snapped. I can't take it. She goes through my trash, my mail, my laundry everything! So I yelled at her. I told her that just because I don't have a job and I'm not in school right now doesn't mean she has a right to go through my laundry and trash. I have a right to some privacy. Its bad enough she goes through the stuff in my bathroom and has to stick her nose in everything. I can't take it. I'm going bonkers!

I'm almost to the point I rather be homeless and on the streets then put up with this shit!

That is one of my major pet peeves. People getting into my stuff without permission. It just pisses me off. She knows this. I've tried several times to talk to her and get it through her head nicely that I don't like it and it upsets me. She doesn't listen. She takes it the wrong way. Gets mad and storms off.

This weekend I am making my dad take me driving so I can get over this stupid fear and when I'm over that I'll take myself around pounding the pavement until somebody gives me a fucking job. Then I'll save up until I can move out and start college! When I'm through with college I'll do everything I can to find a job in another state. As far away as I can!

I swear she is the type of person that even if I had my own apartment when she come over she'd still go through all of my stuff!

I'm going to tell anybody that asks I want money for my birthday. Forget the Sims 2 expansion pack oh no I'm buying locks! One lock with a key for my bedroom door and one for my closet. And if they get pissed about it too damn bad!

I swear I'm going to try and get an apartment without a roommate. I don't think I could handle getting a roommate who would be all up in my business and think just because we share an apartment they have to know every single thing I do. IT DRIVES ME NUTS! Nuts I tell you! I'm pulling my hair out!

I know this is all whiney and bitchy but I had to get it out. Oh great now shes blaring her bad music.... *shivers* elvis and conway.... shoot me now?

Old Tears + New Fears = Lolita