Oh I'm tired! I downloaded some movies so I would have something to watch at night when nobody is online. So far I have A Cinderella Story (not as horrible as I thought it was going to be), Without A Paddle, (Yet to be watched though I tested it and it does work), The Grudge (still dling), The Notebook (still dling), Little Black Book (still dling, and Vampire Hunter D Bloodlust. Yep gotta love that.
I spent today running around town. I went to the Dollar Tree where I got a cute mug I'll put up a picture of it later. Candy bars for my grandmother, gave her one and holding on to the other one. Candy for me and so my mom wouldn't bitch candy for her. I also got my dad's anniversary gift a book and I'll get him some cashews later. Hes easy to shop for. Thats all he ever wants.
Then we went to Wal-Greens where I got 3 cans of mushrooms for my mom. Then to the nursing home to see my grandmother who was thrilled she got her favorite candy bar of all time, A Three Musketeers. We got her laundry to take home and wash and then it was off to Sams.
I nearly died right there! I was just walking around looking for a dvd for my mom and I wondered down the aisle where the computer games are. There right in front me all colorfull and attractive looking was Sims 2 University Pack...I've been wanting it for months! Ever since I heard it was coming out. So not only was it right there and me with my checking book it was 10 dollars cheaper then anywhere else. Even the people who made it are selling it for more. I was soo very tempted. But no I didn't do it. I made myself walk away and go look for that DVD. They didn't have the dvd but knowing I had found it online and that I somehow have to get the money for it I decided to resist the temptation of digging into emergency money and buying that game! But damn it I wanted it so bad! I love it okay. I get so little things that make me happy but this rocks my fucking world okay. I know it probably makes me a big looser but hey I love the Sims 2 so there for I am dying for the Sims 2 Expansion pack. I had sims 1 and all of its expansions but after Sims 2 I uninstalled sims 1 because it couldn't compare.
So there on that cold self in Sams sits my love...
Okay so whats so important about this DVD I HAVE to get. Well I'll tell you. Two weeks from now is my parents anniversary. My dads gift is taken care of and only cost about 4 dollars because hes easy to buy for and doesn't care about big expensive stuff and is like me and loves books. My mother on the other hand...a pain in the ass to shop for! No its not a saying my ass actually hurts when I shop for her!
So she has wanted for as long as I can remember two dvds that she used to watch as a child. Well they were VHS then but now she has a dvd player and wants them on DVD so she can watch them again since the tape of one tore up and she never could find the other one. Well I found them both. One is the Polar Bear King and the other is Roger and Hammerstien's Cinderella. I found them both at Amazon.com it is the only place I could find them besides ebay but I'm staying away from that place since its more addictive then crack. What it is?! So Cinderella costs: $18.71 and the Polar Bear King costs: $30.00
I will probably get Cinderella but of course she'll bitch about not getting the Polar Bear King. But if I get the Polar Bear King then of course she'll bitch about not getting Cinderella. I can NOT afford both.
Okay that was just unfair and mean people! I went to amazon.com to see how much those movies are just now and a huge as picture of guess what showed up on the main page? THE SIMS 2 UNIVERSITY PACK!!! URGH, GRRR, and ROAR!!
Okay sorry I'm over it now. Okay I'm not really but I'll move on to the entry and shut up about that now.
So a few months back I looked them up on the net for my mom she decided she didn't want to buy them but now knows they are there. She has been hinting non stop this month at me to get them for her. Apparently she thinks I charge 100 dollars for a layout...Well I don't. I charge 10-20 or I have ones that people can take for 5 dollars that are pre made customs because once you pay the 5 dollars for it. Its yours nobody else can get it. And then I give some away for free. She doesn't understand this.
So now not only can I not really afford the Cinderella movie I can't afford sims 2 university pack. Why did it have to come out this month!? Evil pure evil...
So I don't really like my mother. We don't get a long really. She makes me miserable most of the time. But being me and knowing I couldn't live with myself otherwise I am going to dip into the 50 thats in my checking account which I am NOT suppose to do and buy that damn DVD. Then I will be beggin on the diary non stop for people to buy customs or the pre-made thingys so I can pay it back and not get introuble.
I have to have at least so much in the bank at the end of every 6months which for me is after May for me or they start charging me some kind of fine. Screwed up Credit Union...But its the only place in town so I have to put up with it.
I have GOT to get a freaking job. Anything people I'm done being picky. I didn't want to work at McDonalds or some place like that just because I know I wouldn't be the best at it and it would seriously make me sick but hell I'll take it now.
How is it every President promises to give more job opportunities? Yet they don't. If they do its only for those with ubber experience and degrees. Well how am I suppose to get a degree if I can't afford college? And I can't afford college without a job. I can't get a job unless I have expiernce in the field or a degree. But in order to have experience you have to of had a job before that....and well you see where thats going...In one big dog chasing its own bloody tail circle thats where! Its fucked we all know it. I'll say it and sure some of you will argue with me but you know its really true though.
You know what sucks though. I've lowered my expectations and hopes and decided to go apply at burger king and mcdonalds and taco bell and other horrible resturants and non of them are hiring! AAAAHHHHH can't I get a damn break here guys?
I mean I feel like everytime I get going I run SMACK into a brick wall. I'm so sick and tired of brick walls. And just when I get a sledge hammer to break and break through that one another one pops up!
I'm begining to wonder is life really worth all this energy and fuss only so we can be slaped and laughed in the face at by the Gods/Fates?
*leaves diary mumbling and grumbling to self...*

Old Tears + New Fears = Lolita