I have been having the strangest dreams lately! Every night now for about a week or so I've had a strange dream. Now when I dream it tends to be in great description and I know I'm dreaming too. I'm also always watching myself. Some people dream as if they are inside their body not me. When I dream I see myself as others do.
So anyway this last dream freaked the hell out of me! I had a dream that an old "friend" of mine came over to my house and was staying in my brothers old room. Which was a wreck the whole house was a complete mess.
Well without taking up 2 hours of your life describing what happened second by second I'll cut to the point and say she and I ended up having sex! Wooo how strange?
Like the third time we were in my brothers old room and her mom walked into my house and caught us! What the hell?!
Not to mention if I did sleep with a girl it would not be this chick! For one she stinks really badly! Not like B.O. just like a bad smell has eeped into her clothes and hair and won't come out.
I was seriously grossed out! It was very detailed and what we did was very naughty things. I woke up all hot and sweaty and wanting sex. But then I remembered the dream and who it was with and had an instant need to throw up.
Okay so the dream before that one I was a little slut. I slept with 2 girls and one guy would have been 2 guys but I woke up.
Okay but after the sex dream is over I then go into a dream where I'm fighting some big evil or my life is in danger and I'm running. Is strange no?
Not sure if the dreams are connected or not. I asked a friend about the sex dreams and she thinks it means I'm wanting to connect with a female not necassarily on a sexual level. This could be true because all of my female friends have kinda left. But I've done without them for a year so why is now all of a sudden so different.
I looked it up on dream dictionary and this is what they said:

Sex

To dream about sex, refers to the psychological completion and the integration of contrasting aspects of the Self. You need to be more receptive and incorporate aspects of your dream sex partner into your own character. Alternatively and a more direct interpretation of the dream, may be your libido's way of telling you that it's been too long since you have had sex. It may indicate repressed sexual desires and your needs for physical and emotional love.

To dream about sex with someone other than your spouse or significant other, suggests dissatisfaction with the physical side of your relationship. On the other hand, it may be harmless fantasy. In such situations, you may find that you are less inhibited sexually and you can even bring that sense of adventure to your existing relationship.

To dream that you are having sex with an ex or someone who is not your current mate, denotes your reservations about embarking in a new relationship or situation. You may feel nervous about exposing yourself or currently feel a resurgence of those old emotions and feelings that you felt back when you and your ex were together. Believe it or not, it is not uncommon for people approaching their wedding to experience especially erotic adventures with partners other than their intended spouses. This may be due to the intensity of your sexual passion with your fiancé. It also relates to the new roles that you will be taking on and the uncertainty that that may bring.

If you are heterosexual and you dream that you are having sex with someone of the same sex, signifies not necessarily homosexual desire, but an expression of greater self love and acceptance. You need to be in better touch of your feminine or masculine side.

To dream that you are the opposite sex, suggests that you exhibit or need to incorporate those qualities of the opposite sex. Ask yourself, how do you feel being a man or a woman? In what ways can you incorporate those feelings into your waking life.

Or I could just be horny *shrugs* Anyway sex dreams are highly unerving! Now I'm scared to sleep... I don't like them they are freaky. Last night was the only one were I slept with somebody I knew. Oh ya and she tasted bad...I could actually taste and smell and everything so I woke up with a bad taste in my mouth...And no I don't mean that as something dirty I mean from kissing her.
Okay so change of venue. I have been reading a good book. Its the novel version to the child's fairtale the Polar Bear King. Its called Once Upon A Winter's Night by Dennis L. McKiernan

Its a really good book. Though I was very shocked. It is an adult version. Its not that bad it was just one part where the chick lost her virginity to the prince. But still it threw me off. I was NOT expecting to read that in a book about a fairytale. Not that I'm complaining it was good. And as somebody who has a fairytale fetish I was quite pleased. Okay I love fairytales well some of them I go for those less popular. I hate Cinderella, Snow White, and Sleeping Beauty. I mean seriously Cinderella was a freaking wuss. She could have left but instead she waited until her prince came and rescued her. Pansy assed little prick if you ask me. Sleeping Beauty I guess couldn't do much since she was well sleeping the whole time lol. So we shall forgive her for now.
But then there's little miss snow white. Okay sure she tried to get away from her evil stepmother but that bitch was stupid! I mean seriously I can see falling for the evil witch's trick the first time but you think she would have learned her lesson but now she fell for it three freaking times. I mean really...that is just sad man. I think those fairytales are demeaning toward women. They tell girls that they don't have to work for themselves or do anything themselves they can just sit around and pout and wait for prince charming to come riding up on a white horse. Well umm ya not gonna happen. Thats right little girls everywhere there is no such thing as Prince Charming you have to save yourself!
I like Beauty and the Beast now thats a good fairytale cuz Belle takes charge and kicks ass. Well as much ass as a fairytale can kick. Haha
Of course being a wiccan I was offended that witches got such bad reps. I mean if they were good then they weren't witches they were fairy godmothers or something.
Okay so I may sound like I hate fairytales but I don't I just think they could make them a little better. I kinda have a thing for the dark fairytales. LoL I fall for the bad boy character in the fairytale. For instance there is a fucked up version of little red riding hood as I refer to it. I saw it on TNT one night but haven't been able to find out its name since. I wish I could though I loved it. Well it was like little red riding hood. But wolves werent really the bad ones and little red riding hoods ends up turning into a wolf to be with the leader of the wolves who btw was HOT!! mmm ya baby. Okay so I have a thing for wolves. I guess I identify with them getting the bad rap in fairytales if that makes any sense. I mean a wolf kills because its hungry or trying to protect itself and its evil! But humans do it and its just human nature. I mean we can slaughter all the animals we want to but when an animal kills a human because they are hungry and there isn't anything else around or because they feel threatened we blame them and hunt them down to kill them. I mean really what makes humans so special? I mean if you ask me most of us are just hypocrites. So in my opinion wolf not so evil prince charming who slays wolf bad bad guy! Not so charming!
Okay so anyway I'm getting off that subject now. You can leave me hatefull notes arguing now. No go ahead I like a good debate. Everbody here is afraid to debate me on it.
Okay So I thought I would share a picture of trillian with you all. Its the skin I chose to use. I love it. It talks to me and tells me Incoming Message. It tells me when I have mail from yahoo, aol, msn, and gmail. The gmail is a plugin but it works so cool. Now if only I could figure out how to get it to tell me if I have mail at myway or not. Thats my main email account. I love MyWay its ten times better than any other email system I've used. No annoying pop ups or adds. And its free with tons more space than most offer for free accounts. They don't charge at all! Its nifty I love it.
So I leave you with a picuture of the skin.

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